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It seemed for a while that but for the grace of the latest
NBA fine or suspension of Ron Artest go I. Every time the guy got suspended
I would write a new sports column and talk about it. It turns out that not
many people care about Ron Artest, or my hot sports opinions. That’s fine,
I’m willing to deal with that and move on. In the next several weeks,
rather than my usual editorializing, you will find critical essays that I
wrote in college. They all got A’s and since the time I turned these papers
in, they’ve been edited to reflect the changes that my professors thought I
should make; that should mean they’re even better. I hope you all enjoy the
more intellectual side of Steven Kilpatrick, but if not…at least I’ve filled
space until Dave can get Plenarius.com going.
Oh, By
the way, my band recently cut their first studio demo and soon we’re gonna
have the songs online. We already have a cut of one of them that still
needs a little mixing and another song that’s just a goof-off demo. Check
them out at
www.mothuck.com/tmpmp3s.html and tell me what you think.
The following paper was written for my Short Story class at
UNT in spring of 2001. I’d like to think I’m a better writer now, but I’m
probably worse at critical essays now that I’ve been away from them for so
long. Still, this was a pretty good essay, and I wrote it the morning it
was due… that’s pretty much how I do all of my writing actually. As for the
grade, it got a 93 and has since been edited to fix some of the more
annoying mistakes. It was one of only three A's in the class and I was the
only Freshman in a class full of Junior level English majors. This paper
obviously instilled me with a huge sense of pride because of that.
Unfortunately, like the boy in Araby, my joy was superficial and even my
small victory didn’t help me pay for college. Go Irony!
Disillusioned Epiphany
Childhood is a time when people find the simple things in life and idolize
them. People tend to spend much of their older years talking about the
“good old days” as some sort of enigma. They can never convey what it is
about youth that they miss so much. Telling the same stories over and over
again, they try to latch on to the parts of those stories that hold the key
to their childhood. Those who listen to the stories rarely understand the
point. The audience for such stories is usually made up of someone who has
not yet gained the perspective to understand what it is that has been lost.
The item that the story tellers are trying to rediscover from their youth is
quite out of reach. It is the innocence of being a child. It is the
thought that the simple things are important. The recurring theme in the
“good old day” story is rooted in a sense of “newness” and often foolish
behavior. James Joyce tells his “good old days” stories in a different way
than we are used to however. He tells them as the child loses his sense of
innocence and not in the normal sacred way that most old men will on their
front porch. Joyce’s “Araby” is one such example of a boy full of innocence
and youth and how quickly he becomes disillusioned by a reality that he had
never before noticed.
The
reader gains his earliest indication of the boy’s delusion in the second
paragraph. He is discussing the priest whose death occurred in their
drawing room. When discussing the books: ‘I liked the last best because its
leaves were yellow’ (Joyce. “Araby.” Norton Anthology. 427-431.)
the boy gives no indication of the content in the book. He does not even
give one the idea that he has read them. His superficiality is immediately
thrust in the face of the reader. This makes it evident that he judges the
book on appearance rather than content. A sentiment that is later echoed in
his feelings for the girl. When he tells of the girl he says, “I had never
spoken to her, except for a few casual words,” he then says in the following
paragraph, “Her image accompanied me even in places the most hostile to
romance.”(Joyce, 428). He states to the reader that the girl’s image is
what he is infatuated with. He cannot know the girl’s thoughts well enough
to judge her by them, because they have barely spoken. His entire
infatuation is built on the naïve idea of “love at first site” that is
mostly a characteristic of children. For adults it is almost a stigma to
love for looks or appearance, but as a child it is a common occurrence. The
fact that the boy tells of his superficial love so nonchalantly is
indicative of his delusion and innocence.
The
boy’s idealism is evidenced in that same paragraph. When he describes
having to travel through the crowd of people on the street, he idealizes his
love for her saying, “I bore my chalice safely through a throng of foes.”
This line not only symbolizes the boys idealism, but it insinuates worship,
likening her to The Holy Grail (Gifford. “Araby.” Joyce Annotated.
40-48.). This worship of the girl is reinstated a few lines later when he
claims, “Her name sprang to my lips at moments in strange prayers and
praises.” This growing adoration again shows his superficiality as he
likens this girl, whom with he has never spoken, to that of some religious
icon. When the girl tells him of the Bazaar he promises that if he attends
he will bring her something. This is almost as if the girl is his
god and his trip to the Araby is his own quest for the Holy Grail. His love
for the girl has become a religious experience for the boy, and his thoughts
become obsessed with his need to go to the Bazaar for her. His idea that
his quest for her is of elevated importance is evidenced in his actions: “I
had hardly any patience with the serious work of life which, now that it
stood between me and my desire, seemed to me child’s play, ugly monotonous
child’s play.”(Joyce, 429). This serves to cement his delusion to the
reader. The boy’s idea that his superficial quest is divine and the other
parts of life are “child’s play” is a supreme irony. The reader recognizes
the boy’s obsession as a fraud and the reason for that obsession as
superficial, but the boy compares it to religious divinity and likens
everything else to child’s play. Joyce has given the reader plenty of
evidence of delusion and he has also set the stage for the final few
paragraphs of the text when the boy sees his folly.
The
final evidence of the boys delusion, and the catalyst for his epiphany, are
found in his interactions at the Araby. His rash thought is shown before he
even enters the Araby. He hands a shilling to a man at a turnstile, rather
than take the time to find a cheaper entrance. The shilling was half of the
amount he had with him and in spending it so freely he has little left for
the gift he plans to buy (Gifford, 48). When he enters the bazaar he
immediately likens it to a church: ‘I recognized a silence like that which
pervades a church after a service.’(Joyce, 431). This is the first
evidence that the boy is becoming disillusioned. When he speaks of the
bazaar as a church, it is not with the same divinity that he uses in earlier
comparisons. His anticipation and romantic image of the Araby is quite
different than the image he is presented with upon his arrival. Most of the
stalls are closed and the lady who tried to help him did so without any
passion for it. The attitude of the weary man at the turnstile, and the
bored woman at the stall, are quite the opposite of the boy’s grand ideal of
the bazaar. When he sees that no one else has the same glorious perception
of the bazaar his disillusionment is almost complete. It is evident that he
has lost his sense of divinity when he can not easily remember why he came.
For something that was such a strong force in his mind to be so easily
forgotten takes a very traumatic revelation. The lights then go out and the
bazaar ends before the boy ever completes his quest that sent him there in
the first place.
As the
lights go out both the boy and the reader share a moment of, “enlargement of
consciousness and character,”(Connor. “The Indefinite Article: Dubliners.”
James Joyce. 7-27.). The boy finally realizes his superficial
need to please someone he does not even really know: ‘Gazing up into the
darkness I saw myself as a creature driven and derided by vanity; and my
eyes burned with anguish and anger.”(Joyce, 431). The entire piece has
built to this one moment of clarity for the boy, and the reader. The boy
recognizes his vanity and the fact that it drives him. He sees that not
only the bazaar is built on superficiality and fraud, but so is his very
reason for attending it. For a boy who saw life as child’s play when
compared to his vision of love, this is a critical revelation. It signifies
a loss of innocence that he can never regain. Joyce’s tale of a child who
loses his innocence so harshly, is enough to make one yearn for their
grandfather’s tales of “the good old days.”
You
can expect a new paper every week for the next couple of months. Please let
me know what you think. Also, if you’ve read the story I WELCOME and DESIRE
any conflicting or assenting papers or discussion. I always like to get a
different spin on my ideas and would love to hear what you thought of and
took from the same story. I’m sure some of you British readers out there
have read Joyce. |